[ There's something comforting about Josh in a way that nobody else has managed to help him. He isn't sure if it's because Josh wasn't involved in this business or if there's something else to it, but that squeeze to his shoulder does so much to ground him. ]

I appreciate it, man. Maybe one day it'll be easier to talk about. Just...it still feels like it just happened, you know?

[ He knows he should leave this place behind. He isn't sure what's keeping him here, specifically rooted to this trailer. He could stay in Hawkins, find an apartment, not feel like he's completely abanodoning everything.

Maybe a small part of him feels like he needs to stay, rooted in guilt. ]