[ There's something comforting about Josh in a way that nobody else has managed to help him. He isn't sure if it's because Josh wasn't involved in this business or if there's something else to it, but that squeeze to his shoulder does so much to ground him. ]
I appreciate it, man. Maybe one day it'll be easier to talk about. Just...it still feels like it just happened, you know?
[ He knows he should leave this place behind. He isn't sure what's keeping him here, specifically rooted to this trailer. He could stay in Hawkins, find an apartment, not feel like he's completely abanodoning everything.
Maybe a small part of him feels like he needs to stay, rooted in guilt. ]
When you feel like it. [ Sometimes, he finds that people need permission to go through their grief. People do it. Ghosts do it. Then again, ghosts are just facsimiles of people.
This place will always have that touch of death. If Eddie chooses to stay, he'll have to learn to make peace with it. ] There's no timeline on grief, you know.
[ Tugging a cigarette from his pack and offering it to Eddie. ]
So. Now that you have your action plan for Hawkins' wayward prince, what else is on the agenda?
[ Eddie gives a curt nod at that. He doesn't know if he'll ever feel like it, but maybe one day he'll open up that box and revisit it. For now, though, he'll let go of the grief, push it out of the way until he's more prepared to dealt with it. ]
Yeah, I know. Just feels like. I don't know, I barely knew the girl. Seems silly to be so messed up by it. [ Then again, it's a very special brand of trauma and grief, combining to make it impossible to move forward.
Hell, maybe that's what contributed to this whole thing with Steve no showing. He takes the offered cigarette and grabs a lighter off the coffee table to light it up. After the the first puff, he glances to Josh and gives a shrug. ]
I dunno, might see about actually getting a job in this hellhole. [ Because if it does work out for him and Steve, then he'll have a reason to stick around Hawkins a little while longer. But he can't just keep selling weed to high school students forever; the money just isn't enough these days. ]
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I appreciate it, man. Maybe one day it'll be easier to talk about. Just...it still feels like it just happened, you know?
[ He knows he should leave this place behind. He isn't sure what's keeping him here, specifically rooted to this trailer. He could stay in Hawkins, find an apartment, not feel like he's completely abanodoning everything.
Maybe a small part of him feels like he needs to stay, rooted in guilt. ]
i hate life
This place will always have that touch of death. If Eddie chooses to stay, he'll have to learn to make peace with it. ] There's no timeline on grief, you know.
[ Tugging a cigarette from his pack and offering it to Eddie. ]
So. Now that you have your action plan for Hawkins' wayward prince, what else is on the agenda?
yeah about that i also hate life
Yeah, I know. Just feels like. I don't know, I barely knew the girl. Seems silly to be so messed up by it. [ Then again, it's a very special brand of trauma and grief, combining to make it impossible to move forward.
Hell, maybe that's what contributed to this whole thing with Steve no showing. He takes the offered cigarette and grabs a lighter off the coffee table to light it up. After the the first puff, he glances to Josh and gives a shrug. ]
I dunno, might see about actually getting a job in this hellhole. [ Because if it does work out for him and Steve, then he'll have a reason to stick around Hawkins a little while longer. But he can't just keep selling weed to high school students forever; the money just isn't enough these days. ]