I like the idea of being someone's lucky charm. Your lucky charm actually. Everyone else makes me feel like I'm not perfect enough, that I can't do anything right. But you make me feel like I'm actually worth something.
So I guess what I wanted to say is thank you. For doing that.
[It's a slightly big statement and a little heavy. But it's on her mind when he's telling her the truth about being his lucky charm.]
[ It takes Eddie by surprise, reading all of that. He's never really had anyone take him this seriously before, or had anything last long enough for it to get this serious. ]
You are perfect. If anyone tells you otherwise, they are full of shit.
You make me feel like I don't have to be perfect, that I can be my weirdo self, that I can let my freak flag fly, and I've never had anything quite like this before? But I know I really like you, and I really like this, what we have. And I really...I don't want to lose this.
[ Because naturally he fears putting this into words, what he feels, it's going to be the kiss of death, that he's going to lose everything that has made him feel like he belongs somewhere, with someone. ]
[Chrissy reads that a few times before doing something stupid and girly and hugging the phone to her chest, like she's hugging him. He almost gets a gibberish keysmash sent back to him, but she thankfully catches it before that happens.]
We don't have to lose this. I mean, we can find a way to keep it. How hard can it be?
[ Eddie can probably be heard whooping in victory from a mile away ]
I like your attitude. And just knowing that you feel that way does fill me with a lot more confidence
[ of course, a part of him does worry that he'll still somehow fuck this up, like he fucks everything up. but he tries not to let that interfere enough to become a self fulfilling prophecy ]
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Weeeelll so long as it involves no clothes I'm sure I won't be disappointed.
If you also happen to have some ice cubes handy, I wouldn't say no to that either.
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would you like some hot wax to go with those ice cubes? Or is that pushing it a little too far?
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[but she's smiling and ducking her head to hide it like he can actually see it wherever he is right now]
Can I tell you something though?
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[ it's okay because he's definitely biting back a grin himself ]
You can tell me anything.
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So I guess what I wanted to say is thank you. For doing that.
[It's a slightly big statement and a little heavy. But it's on her mind when he's telling her the truth about being his lucky charm.]
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You are perfect. If anyone tells you otherwise, they are full of shit.
You make me feel like I don't have to be perfect, that I can be my weirdo self, that I can let my freak flag fly, and I've never had anything quite like this before? But I know I really like you, and I really like this, what we have. And I really...I don't want to lose this.
[ Because naturally he fears putting this into words, what he feels, it's going to be the kiss of death, that he's going to lose everything that has made him feel like he belongs somewhere, with someone. ]
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We don't have to lose this. I mean, we can find a way to keep it. How hard can it be?
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I don't know, I can think of a lot of people who wouldn't want to see us together.
Of course, to that I also say, fuck them.
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[give her a second. she's a sweet girl this is a lot for her to type]
Fuck them. Seriously! Who gets to decide whether or not we can be together? Just us. Screw anyone else that tries having an opinion.
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I like your attitude. And just knowing that you feel that way does fill me with a lot more confidence
[ of course, a part of him does worry that he'll still somehow fuck this up, like he fucks everything up. but he tries not to let that interfere enough to become a self fulfilling prophecy ]
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Wait. I'm not sure you can handle having more confidence.
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Yeah, see, jumping onto tables and saying damn the man is one thing. I get detention, not a big deal.
Getting cornered by the whole basketball team at one of Tammy's parties after Jason sees us together?
Hah. That's where my confidence goes out the window.