Maybe you were just really in love with the idea of being in high school.
[She doubts it, but she's also not really trying to analyze why he hadn't graduated when he was supposed to.]
Mhm. [It's fine. In the grand scheme of things, telling him the truth now seems unnecessary. She'd wanted him to ask her out in eighth grade, and then at the beginning of ninth grade. And sure, she was kind of annoyed when it never happened but she got over it. Now, it doesn't matter.] I mean I liked him before that. I just hadn't figured out how to tell him, and then I just sort of blurted it out over ice cream.
Yeah, because getting bullied by teachers and jocks alike is just oh so charming.
Yeah, weed does sometimes have that kind of loose lips effect. Shit, I was definitely a lot more carefree with, uh. How I spoke with certain parties.[ Not that he didn't just have a tendency to flirt in general, but it was definitely more overt with Steve that night. ]
Hey, I'm sure there are probably some people that are into it. I don't ever want to meet those people, but sure.
And look. I just saw brownies and didn't realize they were weed brownies until I'd already had half. [She will have to remember to be more careful next time is all. Assuming there's a next time.]
[She's not sure what else to say about it, so... emoji it is!]
It's probably partially my own fault for not leaving when I realized the whole place smelled like the inside of your van, but honestly I just really wanted a brownie.
[And, ultimately, the world hadn't ended even though she'd had junk food and taken drugs and hung out with a boy.]
Are you really asking me if I don't know who Steve Harrington is?
That makes sense. If you're around a smell long enough, you stop noticing it.
Maybe he has noticed before but wasn't sure what to say about it so he decided to say nothing. Or maybe he really hadn't noticed before. Some people just aren't observant.
Maybe. I didn't really expect anything to come of it, you know?[ Because this was Steve fucking Harrington and sure they're not in Hawkins anymore, but that doesn't make it any easier to overcome all that conditioning. ]
I don't think it's a problem.[ And boy is he grateful that Chrissy isn't making a big deal out of him flirting with another guy. Then again, it's one thing to harmlessly flirt and another thing entirely if there is actual intention behind it. ]I just don't want to end up pushing him away if it makes him uncomfortable.
Sometimes flirting just for the sake of flirting is nice too. I'm sure everyone does it. [She can't really say that with complete certainty, but it feels like a safe assumption to make.]
Did he seem like he was uncomfortable when he brought it up? [To be fair, her experience with being high extends to the one time the previous night, and she was already feeling pretty floaty by the time Vance showed up to carry her out. Chrissy has no idea what it was like for Steve or how he feels about Eddie flirting with him, so she doesn't want to assume one way or the other.]
He didn't seem uncomfortable, I don't think.[ It's hard to say, because Steve was very, very high, and it was over text. ]Just that he couldn't really comment on it in his, uh, state of mind at the time.
[ Talking to him about it. Probably not a bad idea. Ignoring it and pretending it didn't happen? Definitely a terrible idea. As scary as it is actually acknowledging that yes, he did this thing and owning it, trying to dance around it doesn't seem very productive at all. ]I guess it couldn't hurt.
I wish I knew him well enough to be able to tell you "oh do x and it'll work out the way you want it to", but honestly I don't think I'd spoken to him more than a handful of times before I woke up here. [And chances were very good that that handful of times had been mostly Jason speaking while she sat off to the side or whatever.] That's fair.
[She'd definitely been more inclined to just say whatever popped into her head the night before, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it's also maybe not the best time to be having any sort of serious discussions.] I feel like being honest is the best idea. If nothing else, you won't have to wonder about what-ifs anymore.
I appreciate you taking the time to "listen" either way. Like seriously, this is more than I would've expected from any of the guys back home.[ He loves and adores Gareth and Jeff, but he knows their advice would have been far less helpful, and would have involved a lot more teasing. ]
Yeah, you're probably right. Can't really hide from this forever.[ And who would have thought it would take a game of The Price is Right and Eddie's decision to heckle the contestants to put all of this in motion. ]
I figured it's the least I could do after bothering you for advice first! Thanks for that, by the way. [In the end, what she'd really been looking for was reassurance that she hadn't messed things up, and she'd gotten that.]
That happens occasionally. And maybe it won't make much of a difference either way, but I'm rooting for you.
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[She doubts it, but she's also not really trying to analyze why he hadn't graduated when he was supposed to.]
Mhm. [It's fine. In the grand scheme of things, telling him the truth now seems unnecessary. She'd wanted him to ask her out in eighth grade, and then at the beginning of ninth grade. And sure, she was kind of annoyed when it never happened but she got over it. Now, it doesn't matter.] I mean I liked him before that. I just hadn't figured out how to tell him, and then I just sort of blurted it out over ice cream.
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Yeah, weed does sometimes have that kind of loose lips effect. Shit, I was definitely a lot more carefree with, uh. How I spoke with certain parties. [ Not that he didn't just have a tendency to flirt in general, but it was definitely more overt with Steve that night. ]
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And look. I just saw brownies and didn't realize they were weed brownies until I'd already had half. [She will have to remember to be more careful next time is all. Assuming there's a next time.]
Certain parties?
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[ Haha, he's totally joking. ]
Oh, my dear sweet summer child. People really should know better than to leave weed brownies around unlabeled, though.
Oh. Uh, yeah.
[ Wouldn't it be better if he told someone instead of keeping this all to himself? ]
You remember Steve Harrington?
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[She's not sure what else to say about it, so... emoji it is!]
It's probably partially my own fault for not leaving when I realized the whole place smelled like the inside of your van, but honestly I just really wanted a brownie.
[And, ultimately, the world hadn't ended even though she'd had junk food and taken drugs and hung out with a boy.]
Are you really asking me if I don't know who Steve Harrington is?
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[ More likely it did and Eddie was just used to the smell by now. ]
...Point taken.
Anyway he might have called me out on flirting with him but he was kinda out of it at that point so I don't even know if he remembers.
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[She probably wouldn't have said anything if it was that bad, but that's beside the point.]
Were you flirting with him because he was high or was that part coincidental?
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Purely coincidental. I mean, I've flirted with him before, just. Never been perceived before.
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Maybe he has noticed before but wasn't sure what to say about it so he decided to say nothing. Or maybe he really hadn't noticed before. Some people just aren't observant.
Is it a problem that he said something this time?
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Maybe. I didn't really expect anything to come of it, you know? [ Because this was Steve fucking Harrington and sure they're not in Hawkins anymore, but that doesn't make it any easier to overcome all that conditioning. ]
I don't think it's a problem. [ And boy is he grateful that Chrissy isn't making a big deal out of him flirting with another guy. Then again, it's one thing to harmlessly flirt and another thing entirely if there is actual intention behind it. ] I just don't want to end up pushing him away if it makes him uncomfortable.
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Did he seem like he was uncomfortable when he brought it up? [To be fair, her experience with being high extends to the one time the previous night, and she was already feeling pretty floaty by the time Vance showed up to carry her out. Chrissy has no idea what it was like for Steve or how he feels about Eddie flirting with him, so she doesn't want to assume one way or the other.]
You could try talking to him about it.
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[ Talking to him about it. Probably not a bad idea. Ignoring it and pretending it didn't happen? Definitely a terrible idea. As scary as it is actually acknowledging that yes, he did this thing and owning it, trying to dance around it doesn't seem very productive at all. ] I guess it couldn't hurt.
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[She'd definitely been more inclined to just say whatever popped into her head the night before, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it's also maybe not the best time to be having any sort of serious discussions.] I feel like being honest is the best idea. If nothing else, you won't have to wonder about what-ifs anymore.
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Yeah, you're probably right. Can't really hide from this forever. [ And who would have thought it would take a game of The Price is Right and Eddie's decision to heckle the contestants to put all of this in motion. ]
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That happens occasionally. And maybe it won't make much of a difference either way, but I'm rooting for you.